You are a mess.

I have never seen you as bad as you have been for the last few months. Is it him? Is he making you this way. I know you two fight constantly, but he once made you so happy. What happened? 

If it's him that causes all this, your depression, then why can't you let him go? Both you and I can see he is the cause. I know it has got to be hard, but why hold on to someone who gets you down and fucks you around as much as he does?

I hate seeing you like this, I honestly miss the fun, bubbly side of you. Where has that person gone?!

''It's over, I'm done with this. I can't sit here waiting around for you any longer. It's over''

I never thought that screaming those words down the phone to you would sound so right, I never thought it would feel as good as it did.

I just wish I meant it and had no doubts. I just wish that you would have taken me seriously.  When I said that I didn't want to be with you anymore I truly meant it. I'm done with getting hurt by you, I've had more than enough. If I thought that I could survive without you, then I would have meant it. I would have made you take me seriously and believe it. I'm so fucked up I don't know what I want with this!

I'm not too sure where I stand with you, and I don't like it at all.

 

Just because you like them.

❝ I haven’t been this scared in a long time and I’m so unprepared so here’s your valentine bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody. This world’s an ugly place, but you’re so beautiful to me. ❞

- Going Away to College - Blink 182

Even if I’m busy, I’m never too busy for you. Sometimes, I think maybe that’s the problem.

You have no idea how hard it is for me. You have no idea the struggle that i go through everyday, they struggle i go through just to end the day alive. You don't understand and you never will, because you will never be in my place, you will never see things the way I do and you will never have a life just this tough.

I think the air you exhale is my second hand high, because it always feels good when I'm next to you.

PLEASE COME OVER.
i've been wishing and hoping all day long, you said you would. oh baby, please. i need this more than anything, i need you here with me right now.
please come, i'm begging you.

i am driving myself crazy. i keep breaking down at the silliest things. i just need to be in your arms right now, i just need you to hold me and tell me that everything is okay.

i wish age didn't matter

is it wrong for me to want to spend the rest of my life with you. marry you even and have kids with you? i wouldn't mind if tomorrow you came to me, asked me to marry you and told me you wanted kids right that second. i would wrap my arms around you, squeeze you tighter than ever, say yes and probably cry because that is exactly what i want.
okay so maybe not right now, but some day soon. you have told me thats what you want in a few years time. promise me, please? i want this so bad its crazy.

so yeah. you are going to think i am completely stupid because i was looking at pictures of babies today and it made me cry. it made me think, and i just want one so bad. i know that is not good considering how young i am but i couldn't help but fall in love with these little humans, they are adorable.